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Freaking myself out!

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 All week long I have been working on my final English paper. All day today I was putting the finishing touches on it, and I go to upload it to our final and I remember it is not due until 03/02! Now I can breathe, and I have so much more time to work on it. I even had it down in my planner and my computer planner that it was not due until 03/02 but I still freaked myself out. I believe I did that because it is such a big paper. I am so excited to have more time to work on it and get a great grade on it.  I believe that if I keep working on it like I have been I will get a great grade and finish the class strong in this class. This class has been so fun, and I am excited about the scavenger hunt we are doing this week. I also believe I am so used to having a week to write a paper and always finishing the final touches to the paper on Sunday, that is why I did that today. I was so excited when I went to turn it in and seen I had more time to finish it. 

Almost got scammed!

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 This past weekend I have been looking into buying a shark vacuum for quite some time and I see a girl I used to work with was selling one. I told her I wanted it and could meet this past Friday night. I tell her I can meet 6 pm on Friday night in the Walmart parking lot. She agrees well I ask her if she had Facebook pay and she said yes. I sent her the $75 and she ask me to unsend it. I inform her I cannot since Facebook would not let me. She tells me that it supposedly went to her other card even though it was not on her Facebook pay settings anymore. I tell her that I am sorry, and I try everything I can on my end. I pull into the Walmart parking lot, and they were already there. I ask her what she wanted to do since I did pay her well, and she kept making excuses on why it would not work. Eventually, she gets out of the car, and I ask her if I can see her phone to fix it and she says oh I fixed it. I do not know honestly maybe she was not trying to scam me, but it really did feel t

First couple classes coming to an end

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 I cannot believe the first couple of classes is almost over. They have been the most stressful but also the most rewarding. I am so proud of myself because I did not think I would make it this far and have always doubted myself. Soon I will be able to say my first semester is complete and I have only 3 or 4 more to go and I will get my degree. I am so proud of myself thus far and I will continue to push myself forward and bring myself closer to my degree. I will always say I am doing this for my daughter and I truly am. She will be able to say mommy made it and mommy made it for me. She will be proud of me because I have completed my classes thus far as well. I am so excited to complete these classes and see what my final GPA is. All my classes so far have been pretty amazing, and I am excited to see my other classes as well. I am though needing to find some more organizational skills because English in college is a lot different than high school English. I feel like I am doing okay b

Brother's birthday!

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 When I was six years old my parents had their third child, which was a little boy. He was born on March 7th,2006. He was born with a heart condition called, hypoplastic left heart syndrome. Which means he was born with the left side of his heart being underdeveloped or completely gone. He lived for 25 days after he was born and passed away on April 1st,2006. I was only six when all of this was taken place, but I remember everything from the time he was born to the day he passed away. He was so little to me, and I wanted to protect him with everything in me but did not realize it was up to God completely. It has been 17 years next month since he was born, and I cannot believe it has been that long. Every year we always have a birthday party for him and let off balloons no matter what. He may not be here anymore but that always helps my family, and we will continue to do it. He will always know how much he is loved and how much he means to us. I have so many pictures throughout my house

Tar Heel Basketball!

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 I have always been a die-hard Carolina basketball fan since I was a little girl. My family is the same way, and we cannot stand Duke! Carolina basketball goes way back, and everyone knows the rivalry between Carolina and Duke! Which side do you pull for? My husband on the other hand is a die-hard Duke fan and has been since he was a little boy. You cannot convince him that UNC is the way to go. On the other hand, he cannot convince me that Duke is the way to go either. We will watch each other's team when they are playing but when Duke and UNC play against each other we pull for our own team and that night is definitely interesting, to say the least. I will try to get my daughter to watch and pull for UNC but honestly who knows who she will pull for maybe just maybe she will pull for a completely different team. That would be just fine with me that way neither her mom nor dad get upset.  Duke VS UNC has always been a big rivalry and even if you do not like either team that game is

Daughter is attached.

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 My daughter has had me wrapped around her finger since the day she was born. I have always wanted her to be used to someone else, but she still always wanted her mommy. I have always given her what she needed, and I am not going to lay sometimes, what she wanted. I have noticed here lately when she falls, I have always jumped to her rescue and my husband tells me I sort of overreact. I have finally seen that, and I definitely do that. I am trying really hard to stop and I am getting better. She is seeing that I am not jumping up immediately and screaming and honestly, she does not cry. My father has always told me I do that, and I never believed him but now I see it. She does not need me overreacting, but I feel like she needs me to always jump to her rescue. She is a big girl, and she will come to me when she needs her mother but for now, I will relax and be there for her when she needs me.  She is an amazing little girl, and she will be okay. I have to let go and let God. He has her

Prices going up!

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 Every time my husband and I get paid we go to the store (Walmart) and we get what we are needing. That may be anywhere from shampoo, conditioner, or washing powder. We went to Walmart Friday and got what we were needing, and the list goes on and on. We needed hangers, gain pods, dishwashing liquid, paper towels, shampoo, conditioner, body wash, deodorant, and a new diaper bag. When we checked out our total was $201.96. When I see that price, my heart dropped, and I was in total shock. I cannot believe how much everything has gone up. I called my husband and told him the price and he couldn't believe it either. I did not think what we got should have been that price. I know the price of everything supposedly matches what everyone is making but I do not see how. In another two weeks, we will have to go back to the store and spend probably another $200 or even more. When we go to Aldi to get groceries every other week our price there is $100, and all those groceries last us a good am

Milestones with my daughter!

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 My daughter officially turned 16 months old today and man my little 6-pound 15-ounce baby is growing up. When we took her to the doctor for a well-child check-up, she was already passing two-year-old milestones. She is growing up so fast and honestly, I do not know if my heart can keep up. I am so proud of her and how big she is getting and how smart she already is and is becoming. She can say words very well and is trying to say complete sentences. She already says, "Hey google play Elvis." She loves Elvis and loves suspicious minds the most. She is going to be an amazing adult and I know she will become anything and everything she can set her mind to. I am so excited to see where her life takes her but another hand, I am not ready for my little baby girl to grow up. Her father my husband is so excited and overjoyed for her to achieve everything and I am too, but I am not ready for her to leave us. She is growing up so fast and so beautifully, but I know this world is too h

Valentine's Day!

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 I am down with the stomach bug this week but luckily, we celebrated valentine's day this past weekend with my church during a valentine's day banquet! We were able to dress up very nicely and renew our vows and have a nice pasta and salad dinner. It was very special, and we even wore a door prize! It was nice seeing couples that had been together for 60 years and how strong their marriage was and how strong ours is as well! They had the church decorated so nice and everyone was dressed in their very best. The preacher called each couple up and said great things and prayed over them! I am looking forward to going every year. We even hired a babysitter which I have never done, now it was my sister and my cousin, but it was still nice having someone I could trust. They had a wonderful time, and they continue to amaze me every day how much they love my daughter. Sophia was bathed and ready for bed when we got home, and the house was spotless so I definitely think I will continue t

Stomach bug equals no fun!

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      I have never been this sick even when I was pregnant with my daughter! Monday at work I was sitting on the floor playing with my students and suddenly my stomach started aching just like the stomach bug aching! I tried to play it off like I was not hurting but inside I was in so much pain. I ended up getting up and getting my jacket because I started getting the chills and after no longer than 5 minutes, I threw up everywhere. I was absolutely embarrassed but I could not help it. The radioed my boss and she told me if I could drive to go ahead and go home. I was okay to drive home and went to my parents because that was where my daughter was due to my husband working that day. I slept honestly for 2 hours when I got there. My doctor believes I have a bad case of stomach virus because I have not eaten since Monday and cannot keep anything down! I have been lucky because my husband is off, and he has been taking care of my daughter while I rest but I am a mother first, so I am stil

Working while going through school

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 I started working last week at a local daycare and it is a big adjustment going to school being a mom and working! I know one day it will pay off, but I wonder when it is going great so far because I am so organized, but I need a new plan. I see my husband graduate and I want that too! I know Sophia will be so proud of me; honestly, that is all I want to make my daughter proud of me! I will continue to push forward and work towards that degree so I can graduate and walk across that stage and look at Sophia and say I did it for you sweet girl! When she sees me walk across that stage, she will know I did it for her and my husband! I want my daughter to know that even as a mother and a wife you can complete anything you set your mind to. It is a big step going back to school after you have been out of school for so long but when you are determined you definitely can achieve anything you set your mind to!  I will have a degree in business administration and get a career going! 

9 months.

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 When I found out I was pregnant with Sophia, my world changed for the better. I remember it was a Thursday night and I got off of work and took the test. The line was definitely there, and my sister was with me and I was in shock. I wanted a baby so much but was this the right time? My husband and I was living with my parents because Caleb were going through school to be a cop. Now that I look back and we have a house he has a career, and our life is going great! I am so glad that we had a baby, and I am so glad looking back that the test was positive. Those 9 months went by so fast; honestly, it seemed like 3 months. She is the love of our life and we will continue to enjoy watching her grew and do everything she can possibly do. She is now learning how to crawl on everything and it is so scary to me. She is a little dare devil and I do not thing I can keep up!      I am so thankful for Sophia and her amazing impact on my life! 

Possible surgery for my daughter!

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 Thursday, I took my daughter to the doctor for a well-child checkup and honestly, I did not get the best news. Since she was born, she has had eight ear infections and they want to send her to an ENT because she needs tubes in her ears. The doctor also said her left ear looks super funny and is very small on the inside. I do want the ear infections to stop but I am so very scared, and I do not know why other than she is my daughter. I have had 4 open heart surgeries because I have aortic stenosis and seeing Sophia have surgery on anything scares me. I know she will be okay, but I guess it is the unknown that is worrying me. I will continue fighting for my daughter and I know she will be okay, but I am a mother, and I am just scared! She is still getting ear infections and I am getting so upset watching her in pain. The only thing keeping her fever down is around-the-clock children's Tylenol and ice packs. It seems like I am taking her to the doctor every week! It will eventually g

Church day!

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When I first got pregnant with Sophia, my husband's family told me to keep Sophia out of church for a while because she can get very sick. Well even though I appreciated their concerns the Sunday after we was born, we were at church. I have been going to church since I was born my Papa was a pastor for 33 years and I wanted my daughter to enjoy church just as much as I did and still do. Sophia has only been sick from ear infections, and I believe that is because I trust God more than anything in this world. Tonight, I took her to church, and she slept the entire time I believe it is because she was having a sweet sleep and was at peace. I will continue to let my daughter grow in the church and I know God will bless her. The church loves my daughter and love watching her grow up in their church but sometimes I feel like people are judging her when she cries but I know they are not but that is just my mother mind tricking me I guess. She is such a sweet girl and they will forever be

My Papa

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            The other day at church I looked over at my Papa (Grandfather) and realized he was getting older, and my heart was breaking. I could see his skin and how older it was getting and how he is shaking and cannot take care of himself like he could. My Papa is 73 and I know in my heart that he is getting older and may not be with me very long. I pray he makes it to 150 but realistically I know that is unlikely. When my Maw maw died in 2017, I realized the life I short and to spend every chance I can with family because tomorrow is not promised. I am so grateful my daughter gets to know her Papa and knows the joy I had from him growing up. He is such a sweet man and would do anything he can for anyone. He served in Vietnam for the USMC and because of that he shakes very badly and cannot hold on to things that great. In 2020 during covid, he was outside in his workshop with a table saw and slipped while cutting a board and he lost two fingers because of this. He was told in 2005 th

Just ranting!

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I normally do not write or even discuss police brutality, but my heart has been hurting this weekend.   Typically, I am not one to say much on any topic of police brutality just because I do not know everyone's heart on that topic. As a police wife and daughter, I will say not all law enforcement officers are this way! It absolutely breaks my heart seeing all the death threats and evil comments towards LEO'S because not all of them act this way. Just because of one or a couple bad apples should not cause the whole tree to be thrown away. When my husband and my father put on their badge my heart truly breaks because I do not know if they will come home that night. My husband and father loves everyone and take their oath very seriously. I am heartbroken for the family of the young man that was tragically killed but that does not make all law enforcement officers bad.  My daughter needs her father and her Pawpaw just like those young man's family needed him. The ones who are r

Life of a cop's wife!

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      Caleb my husband has been an LEO which is Law Enforcement Officer since 2021 when he graduated. I was raised by an LEO my dad since he graduated school when I was 3 so I knew the understanding of it when he graduated. My mom mentioned to me that when he graduated my life would never be the same and she was 100% correct. He has been working at Davie County Sheriff's Office since then and my world has forever changed. They have rotating shifts which means one month he is daytime 7AM-7PM and the next month he is 7PM-7AM. Right now, he is on the night shift, and it is such an adjustment especially since I am in school. He sleeps a long time on the first day he is off, and my daughter and I patiently wait on him to wake up so we can see him. During his nighttime rotation, we spend a lot of time on facetime so my daughter can sleep.      I know if he could have permeant shifts, he would but that is not something that the agency is offering at this time. It is hard sleeping while he

First week of college is done!

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           I was honestly so impressed with myself that I have completed all of the requirements for the introduction assignments and now I can dive deep into my major. All of my classes seem super fun and seem like I can get these classes over and do great. It was honestly so easy to get those done with my support system. I have stinky pads all over my house with quotes and inspirations to keep me going. Most of the notes include my daughter and it keeps me going. When my husband I got married it was in 2020 during covid and I was a full-time nanny, and he was working for Asplundh tree company. We knew that is not what we wanted to do with our lives, but we could not wait to get married. I told him to go for any career he wanted to go into, I did not know that law enforcement was his dream. I grew up with a father who was a law enforcement officer, and I knew the dangers of that job. In January of 2021 he started BLET which is Basic Law Enforcement Training. He graduated with that deg

Typical Saturday Morning!

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      Before I started college my typical Saturday morning included my daughter waking up and letting me know she is awake. We both get up I change her diaper and we head to the kitchen for my fruit loop cereal and some strawberries. I am not a big breakfast person, so I sit and drank my coffee while she eats. When she gets done, we go into the living room for her to watch some Ms. Rachel. I know a lot of mothers are not for screen time and I understand that. Sophia my daughter does not watch TV all day. She watches it maybe for a total of 2 hours a day. Ms. Rachel has taught my daughter many things, she is an early childhood educator on YouTube. She has taught Sophia baby sign language, her ABC'S, different songs, how to say words, and so many other things. If my husband at work which is every other weekend, we go to my parents so she can see her grandparents and her aunts and uncles. We go other there and if I need to run errands, including the grocery store my parents will watch

College student but first Mother!

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    I am currently a mother to an almost 15-month-old little girl named, Sophia! When I first decided that I wanted to go back to school and get a degree the whole reason I wanted to was for her. I want her to have a wonderful life and know that she can do anything she sets her mind to. So far this week I have been able to stay up late or get up early to work on assignments. I have a wonderful support system, my family. My husband is a deputy for Davie County Sheriff's office and so his schedule is different than most. When he is off, he has been handling her so I can do schoolwork. When he is working, I am here with her, and I have been very blessed because if she is fed and has a clean diaper all she needs is toys and she is perfectly okay. She does though from time to time want attention, so I have to put schoolwork away for a little bit until she is calmed down.      All my classes are pretty straightforward, and I am enjoying them very much! I am hoping once I graduate from DD